my personal heaven

Hi all! yes, this is my first post for this blog. Its been so long since I last blogged. Had one but shut it down a few years back. I guess sometimes, it is good to get things off my chest. Alas, after 2 years of dedicating my time and sacrifice into a relationship, its finally over. To be honest, he was my first love. I'm not saying that I wasn't to blame for all that had happened but I guess whats done is done. Just need to get things off my chest. Somehow, I feel as though I've lost my family. But, I shall leave it here and I refuse, yes REFUSE! to succumb to weakness. Its time to move on!

I used to think my personal idea of heaven would be a place filled with laughter, my own home, with a loving, capable and understanding husband. A son and a daughter would have seemed rather nice. But i guess its just empty thoughts and wild imagination. I finally realised what I really want in life and this is not what I want for now. Aniwaesss.... it would never have worked out. unless of course both parties were willing to show care and understanding towards each other..many couples fail to do so. My idea of heaven on earth would be to lead a simple life in some peaceful place close to nature, accessible to town of course and oh horses! I wished I could own horses and ride them in the open field, with the cool breeze rushing through my hair, face against the wind and into my veins... the feeling of freedom! Well, dreams aside, back to reality. The only thing on my mind...or at least should be on my mind, is my career! I know I got to be strong and I'm sure the bad times will pass by really soon.

PS: to friends who are reading this, thank u so much for your support all this while. without you to lend me a listening ear, i would never have made it through so quickly though it hurts. If u shld ever need a listening ear, i'll be here too!